Lynch vs. N385

"I never really knew that it was possible... to be an artist in the modern world. I just never figured that you could do that. Forget being the best of anything. That's the fruit of the action. And you do the work... they say... for the doing. Not the fruit. You can never really know how it's going to turn out in the world, but you know that you enjoy doing it... and ideas start flowing. And you start getting excited about stuff. Then, you're having a great time in the doing, and that's what it's all about. If you don't enjoy the doing, then do something else."

- David Lynch

Class today was very hit and miss for me. The irony was not lost on me that some of our class members who have trudged the lowest depths of anxiety might be too anxious or fearful to discuss it with a classroom full of strangers. This might be presumptuous, but it certainly played a role in my participation on Monday.

I hesitate to bring this up, but in the spirit of honest response: Racism, homophobia or violent argument aside, I am very rarely offended or made uncomfortable by any particular course of conversation, especially among friends in the wee hours... but I can't find any reason for our topic of conversation to include such subjects as "Two Girls One Cup." I'm not insulted, but I just truly and deeply don't care and it makes me bored. I get a lot of flack for being reserved and quiet in my daily life, but I'm just fine knowing that I don't have any shit porn anecdotes to contribute at 4:41pm on a Monday in a room full of strangers. I swear I'm not humorless! I just see more potential in this environment.

Bitchfest ceases now. A lot of class was great! Many of the projects people did were awesome, especially the roaches and the girl who posted her expenses. A few people had really good points on the nature of fear and anxiety. While you might not assume it from my appearance, I have actually spent a few accumulated months of my life roaming the country with nomadic, music-festival going rock, gem and marble traders and collectors, which included a certain amount of late-night psychedelic experimentation and some heartfelt discussion of the energy and personality of certain pieces of earth. So yeah, I totally nerded out for the rock session.

I'm excited for the next assignment. One of my main hobbies is manipulating the layers in sound, so I'll definitely enjoy putting something together!